Monday, November 9, 2009

it's been so long...

and I don't even know where to start, or what to say... I've kinda been thinking about posting some journal entries on here but I'm not sure... (I've been sporadically writing letters/notes/milestones in a journal since BG was born, well, a couple BEFORE she was born even, and although there weren't many entries in the early months, I've been writing fairly regularly since July... when she hit the six month mark... ) anyway - I've been thinking about doing that... and alternating those with actual BLOG POSTS about, well, babyshit & giggles :) we'll see how things go... I don't even know if anyone will read these, everyone probably thinks I fell off the face of the earth :) oh well... for tonight, BG's down, hubs is at work, and I'm calling it an early night :) g'night y'all.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Tuesday May12th - Night Waking Log

6:25 nursed 5 minutes, visited UncleB
7:10 home, diaper, change clothes, swing
7:45 nursed 15 minutes
8:00 asleep, my arms, living room, medium light
9:00 crib, awake, fussing
9:30 tylenol, nursed 10 minutes
9:40 asleep (on boob) living room, medium light
10:00 paci, rocked
11:15 bed, lovey, curled up against me

12:45 awake, crying, nursed
4:05 nursed 15-20 minutes
6:30 up

Monday, May 11, 2009

Monday May 11th - Night Waking Log

1:00 - 4 month check-up & shots

4:00 nursed 10 minutes
5:15 home, slept on my chest
6:48 awake, fussy
7:00 nursed, cried, nursed, cried
7:15 asleep, fussing, crying
9:00 nursed 15 minutes
9:20 asleep, my arms
10:00 swing, awake
11:30 tylenol, nursed 10 minutes
11:40 bed, paci, lovey

6:30 up

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Sunday May 10th - Night Waking Log

3:30pm 4oz
4:00 napped
5:30 nursed
6:30 napped
8:15 nursed 10 minutes
9:50 nursed 5 minutes
11:00 bed, dim, paci, rocked

2:30 nursed, rocked
5:15 nursed 10 minutes, rocked
7:10 up

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Saturday May 9th - Night Waking Log

7:00 pick-up from AK's
7:15 asleep
7:45 awake
8:00 ate 3oz, chilled, played w/Daddy
8:30 asleep, my chest, rocked, paci
10:30 bed, nursed 10 minutes

2:15 nursed 5 minutes
5:15 nursed 10 minutes
7:40 nursed 10 minutes
9:00 up

Friday, May 8, 2009

Friday May 8th - Night Waking Log

5:40 diaper change
5:45 nursed 10 minutes
6:00 spit-up, played in gym, paci, walked around, rocked
6:25 spit-up (a lot!) - fussed
6:30 nursed
6:45 spit-up again, and again
6:50 swing
7:30 paci, swayed to sleep
8:00 awake
8:15 nursed 10 minutes, read books
8:50 paci, swaying, rocking
9:10 playing with AuntK
9:30 rocked to sleep by AuntK
9:40 crib, dark
10:20 awake
10:25 nursed 15 minutes, living room, light, TV
10:50 playing w/Papa
11:15 rocking, upstairs, paci
11:25 bed, chattering
11:35 crying, paci

12-12:45 alternated sleeping w/crying
1:00 nursed 10 minutes, living room, TV, light
1:30 bed
3:00 nursed
6:30 nursed
8:30 up

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Thursday May 7th - Night Waking Log

5:55 got home, changed, warmed bottle
6:05 ate 4.5oz
6:25 pooped, burped, played in gym
7:30 rocked/cuddled, paci, crib w/fan - 1/2 swaddled, lovey
8:08 awake, crying, still w/paci, held, hand, shushed, hiding, stood up, she was wide-eyed and smiled at me
8:20 nursed 15 minutes, living room, natural light, no noise
8:45 swing while I washed dishes
9:05 started fussing, diaper change
9:20 upstairs, rocked w/paci - fussy, spit-up
9:30 bed - chattering, playing w/hands, spit out paci, playing
10:00 paci, radio, still playing
11:00 nursed - asleep

2:30 nursed (refused paci) 8 minutes - asleep
5:20 chattering and kicking, nursed 5 minutes
5:45 asleep
6:40 up

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

4 months old today... holy crap.

So I went from 3 days before I was due, to being the mother of a 4 month old without blogging... can you believe it? I can't! that's a lie. actually I very much CAN believe it... for one - um hello, babies keep you pretty busy, for two - um hello, babies keep you very busy, and for three - um hello, hubs works nights so I'm often home alone with the BabyBear, not to mention I'm working full-time, and have been back to work since she was 6 weeks old... SUCK.

BUT - as I'm back to work, I should have plenty of time to screw around and blog right? You'd think... but instead I've been spending all my "screw-off time" playing Mafia Wars on Facebook and lamenting the fact that I have to be at work instead of spending time with my sweet baby... ya know, the usual ;)

Let me try to give you a really short version of the past four months... and then we'll see if I can return to BlogLand on a regular basis...

THE PAST 4 MONTHS: Well... BG was so tiny that learning to change her teeny tiny diapers was a bit of a challenge, and we had to get some newborn outfits as we didn't have much... weren't really expecting her to be so small!! When we left the hospital she was weighing in at 5 pounds 9.5 ounces... at her first check-up she was 5 pounds 12.5 ounces... she's now about 11 pounds I think, we'll find out for sure Monday when we go for her 4 month check-up and immunizations!! I only had enough sick & vacation time saved up to take 7 weeks paid off from work - which really sucked!!

oh babyshit... she's demanding my attention... I'll be back... I promise!

Wednesday May 6th - Night Waking Log

5:30 got home, Goose played in swing while I put away milk, got something to eat, changed diaper
6:30 G ate 1oz, rocker her to sleep @ 7pm, watched American Idol, natural daylight, G slept in my arms, I watched The Mentalist
8:30 G woke up
8:45 ate 30z
9:05 rocked to sleep in my arms - against my chest, TV light on mod./dim
10:00 woke up fussing, gave paci, fell asleep on bottle - 2oz
11:40 awake fussing, crying
11:45 bed, nursing - fan, whitenoise, night light

2:30 woke screaming - too mad, had to walk/stand to get her to latch on, nursed
5:40 nursed
up at 6:45

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Labor & Delivery

HOW IT ALL BEGAN: Well let me tell you how labor was for me... I went to the Dr. at 4:15pm on Monday Jan. 5th for a 40+ week check-up (my due date was the 4th) and for the first time in my entire pregnancy had high blood pressure and LOADS of protein in my urine, so after checking my cervix to find that I was NOT dilated in any way, shape or form - they told me to head in to the hospital just to be monitored, but I would probably go home that same night. The doctor I saw that day told me not to be concerned, it was only for monitoring purposes... yet, as I left the office and climbed into the Jeep I was a bit freaked out and called Hubs crying... "they're sending me to the hospital! I don't want to go all by myself!" as he was just leaving FOR work (darn night shifters!!) and my sister was still AT work, and my mom was already half-way home FROM work, and I was just a bit scared... I'm not sure what I was expecting... I kept imagining that I would either:
A) go into labor one evening while lying in bed as hubs watched TV downstairs on his night off, and we'd just head over when my contractions were 5 minutes apart, or
B) go into labor one evening while lying in bed as hubs was working, and then would call L&C to take me to the hospital when my contractions were five minutes apart, being joined shortly after by hubs, my sister - K, and my mom. This was NOT part of the scenario, not at all.

So hubs says to me (being the clueless male that he is!!) "well... what do you want me to do? I'm just leaving for work - are you going to be having the baby tonight?" well obviously I have no idea when I'm going to be having this baby... but I know that he's still in his probationary period and can't just call in sick to work, so I tell him to go, and I'll let him know if he needs to come to the hospital. THEN I call my mom. She tells me that she will be home in 15 minutes, will change, grab a few things and then head back in to take me to the hospital... I calm down and hang up the phone... Until I start thinking again. So I call my sister K, she's working, but I take a chance... no answer. Next up, my friend and new-mom L... no answer. She (also a night-shift cop) is working too... her husband C is next on the list... and he manages to get me calmed down some, until L beeps in :) L tells me not to worry and reminds me of all the things that she went through just a few short months ago (early water retention, pre-eclampsia, etc. etc.) and finally I was calm, and also - home. I changed my clothes, grabbed a banana and waited for my mom to arrive... in the meantime, K returns my call "are you in labor??" so I explain the situation to her, and as she will be out of work shortly - she decides to meet us at the hospital, just for moral support...

I was admitted around 6:15 or so, they monitored me for a couple of hours, and decided that they were going to induce me on Tuesday morning - probably around 8 or 9am. They inserted a Cervadil (some medication to help soften/ripen the cervix) - let me tell you, that was not comfortable at all (like when they check to see if you're dilated at all - which I wasn't, the reason for the Cervadil) around 8pm, and around 9:30pm my mom headed home... hubs was still at work, my sister K was going to stay with me and then head to work in the morning from there when my mom showed back up around 6:30 or so, and she would keep mom & hubs posted if there were any changes... at 11:20pm my water broke and with it came the Cervadil - it was the weirdest sensation I'd ever experienced... all of this gushing... it was so noisy that K asked me "is that YOU or pipes in the wall??" wow. no wonder I was so huge, it just kept coming! (K called mom & hubs, told them what was going on, but that the docs still said it would be 8 or 9 in the morning, so to stay where they were.) Around 12:30 I started getting uncomfortable (the contractions weren't painful, just uncomfortable, so they gave me a shot of something to help me sleep) and I was dilated to TWO. K made the calls, but reassured mom & hubs that it was still way too early, no need to head over. About 1:40am I woke up disoriented from sleep and this feeling of my body "pushing" and couldn't stop myself from pushing, so I hit the nurse call button... my nurse came in, took a peek and went straight back out of the room, returning shortly followed by my OB, two other doctors (residents I think?) as well as another nurse. They said I'd made liars out of them, as I was now dilated to EIGHT and told K to "call the husband now!" so she did - only to get his voicemail, then called mom, telling her "get here now!!" Hubs called back a few minutes later, and after K informed him that he needed to come ASAP, he made it from work in record time, with about 30 minutes to spare arriving at 2:25am. Mom & aunt made it with 10 minutes to spare... after less than 2 hours of active labor, and 1 hour of hard pushing, BabyGirl arrived at 2:57am weighing in at 6 pounds, 1.2 ounces and was 19 inches long!!

I didn't have time for any drugs or anything, and really, it wasn't painful - just uncomfortable as hell... it REALLY does feel like you have to poop! (thankfully I didn't poop during though, I asked K just to be sure in case I didn't remember!!) ;) The only part that I would say was painful at all was when she crowned - which they call "the ring of fire" and that was really just a burning/stinging sensation and didn't last all that long... if I had the same circumstances, I would go drug free again... as it was I was so exhausted from pushing (and it was only about an hour of hard pushing) that I was out of it right after... if I'd been drugged I think I'd have been even more out of it... but heck - I didn't PLAN to go drug-free, BabyGirl just didn't want to wait! :) So, that's my labor/delivery story... oh, and I've totally dropped almost all modesty/shyness (being a nursing mom does that to you I think!!)

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Tuesday May 5th - Night Waking Log

5:40 home, nursed
6:30 FedEx & Meijer
9:30 my chest, couch, moderate TV/light
10:30 ate 1.5oz bottle
11:30 bed, paci - 4 minutes, nursed

2:30 nursed 10 minutes
4:00 nursed 5 minutes
5:00 nursed 15+ minutes
6:30 awake
6:45 nursed
7:00 asleep in bouncy

Monday, May 4, 2009

Monday May 4th - Night Waking Log

7:05 rocking, couch, moderate noise, natural light
7:30 nursing in bed - 5 minutes, minimum noise, dim
7:50 nursed 10 minutes
8:30 nursed 10 minutes
9:00 nursed 10 minutes
11:00 nursed 15 - downstairs

2:30 nursed 5 minutes
3:25 nursed
5:00 awake
5:40 paci
6:30 awake
7:00 nurse 10 minutes, up for day

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Journal entry #3

My sweet Baby Girl -
I'm not the greatest at letter writer or keeping journals. I always start out well, then kinda lost my way... hopefully I'll be better at keeping up these letters/notes to you so you will have something special to keep one day... anyway... I meant to start these notes to you before now, but you have been keeping me pretty busy, and even when you are sleeping I can't help but stare at you, or cuddle you close to me - you are so tiny and perfect , you are the most beautiful baby I have ever seen - and I'm not just saying that because I'm your mom... everyone else says it too! You turned 7 weeks old yesterday - I can't believe how fast the time has flown

I think I must have fallen asleep on this one - that's how it ended :)

Monday, January 5, 2009

time for Baby!! well... kinda...

Yesterday was my due date and nothing was stirring, not even a fart... I have a check-up today at 4:15 and hopefully they will check to see if I'm dilated at all... cross your fingers for me!!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

due in 3 days, and nothing so far...

yep - that's right. Today is Thursday, my due date is Sunday - and I've not even had any Braxton Hicks contractions! haven't had any signs or symptoms that would indicate that labor is impending either... so, I'm thinking there's a pretty good chance we're going over... which I know is pretty common for first time pregnancies, and I'm lucky enough to not be way uncomfortable still... so - I guess we're just going to wait and see when Copper decides it's time to make the grand entrance :)

which is actually fine, because the longer Copper stays inside, the more time I have to try to talk E out of the names he is TOTALLY stuck on, and that I just don't like. he has two names picked for a girl - and I don't like either of them... Summer & Jemma... sorry, nothing against the names themselves - but they just aren't names I would pick for my child... and to go on a little bit of a vent here - I'm TOTALLY trying to compromise... I've totally given up all the names I picked as first names which he didn't like (Maggie, Aubrey, Olivia, etc.) and have even said I would give up my middle name I always said I would use in order to find a first name we could BOTH like... AND I've come up with numerous lists of names I could live with but he just won't budge!! his idea of compromising is this: we flip a coin, the winner gets to pick the first name, the loser gets to pick the middle name, AND name the next child... so yeah, that sounds decent - except that if I lose, I STILL have to live with a first name I don't like... if he were to lose I wouldn't pick one of my names that he hates as the first name, I'd still pick one we both like... he's driving me NUTS!!

okay, I'm done venting for the moment... but it might not last :) I hope everyone is having a GREAT New Year's Day - and has a wonderful 2009... wish us luck with Copper (whenever he/she arrives!!)